Poem: Castaway

When I sit home alone

Sometimes I feel like a castaway

The only person to talk to

Me, myself and I

And so I do just that

For sitting all alone in total silence

Can be worse than being in a crowd

But feeling like you are

The only person in the room

Written July 25, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Metamorphosis

Maybe things are meant to change
Everything we’ve come to expect
Taking a turn in a different direction
After all that is what life is
Making changes, thriving, moving
Outside of our comfort zones
Reaching out for things yet unknown
Proceeding to learn and grow
Having experiences never to be forgotten
Over the course of our lives
Staying strong and determined
In everything that we set out to do
So that we can become better people

Written July 19, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Often Times I Wish...

Often times I wish I were a different person
The kind of person who not only wants change
But one that believes in herself, never doubting her actions
Takes the ever-present fear and pushes it aside
And exudes confidence, drive and a fighting spirit
To actually make the desired changes happen

I do not wish to be the kind of person
Who wants her current life to be different
But instead of taking chances
And doing everything in her power
To make change happen and turn her life around
Just sits there in her room crying her heart out
Unsatisfied with the way things are turning out
And feeling like nothing will ever change for the better
And life will continue to be the same as it is now

But it is hard to accomplish as fear reigns over me
And I lack the confidence, drive and fighting spirit
That once somehow roamed within me
Causing me to believe that I don’t have what it takes
To create the life that I want to live
A life where the constant tears, whether visible or not
Are replaced by tears of joy, laughter and eternal peace
A life where all my accomplishments are at their peak
And I and everyone around me is proud
Of all I have achieved and the person I have become

Written July 13, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: My Love Is Not for Sale

My love is not for sale

My love has to be

Earned

Deserved

Treasured

Nurtured

Appreciated

Reciprocated in spades

No crisp one hundred dollar bills

Gemstones or diamonds

Gold or silver

Or other material things

Can ever buy my love

Written July 16, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Mysterious Encounter

A mysterious encounter can turn into

An exciting and blossoming relationship

You just have to put any fears or doubts aside

And take a chance on the yet unknown stranger

So go ahead and set up a face to face meeting

So you can discover if there is any spark

Any connection between the two of you

And if any of that comes into existence

On your first mysterious encounter

No matter how tiny it may be

It’s a sign that it can potentially grow

Into something deeper

Something more meaningful

Something everlasting

Something you will treasure for life

Written July 13, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: I Stand There Wondering

I stand there surrounded by darkness

And wonder if I’m making a mistake

But it’s not like I have a choice

There’s nowhere else for me to go

So I must remain where I am

And hope that things will get better

Yet hoping is simply not enough

I have stand strong and confident

I have to take action and fight

To make things better in my life

So I don’t have to stand there

Surrounded by darkness

With tears streaming down my face

Wondering if I’m making a mistake

Written June 13, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: We Become One

Our bodies fit perfectly into each other

Making melodies beneath the starry skies

As our flaming hearts beat as one

In tune with the rhythm of the endless sea

Our burning passion shoots us up into space

In the direction of undiscovered galaxies

Where the hands of the clock are at a standstill

And piece by piece you and I finally become one

Written May 27, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Two Lovers

Two lovers meet in their secret garden

And among lush bouquets

Surrounded by the beauty of nature

Soul to soul, heart to heart

They make unforgettable memories

That forever remain within them

Even after their date comes to an end

Written May 27, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Memories of Dinner at Grandmother’s House

Though my grandmother has long passed

The memories of my time at her home very much alive 

Her apartment filled with the aroma of fried potatoes

And chicken patties frying on the stove

The table set with gold embroidered plates

And filled with my other favorite treats

I am tempted to pick up the phone

And invite myself over for dinner

Only to realize that she is no longer here

My stomach begins to growl

And I make my way to the kitchen

Ready to recreate the dinner in my own home

Written May 14, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Thoughts of the Future

As the bus speeds down the highway

Its destination yet unknown

The soon-to-be wedding of my dreams

That I’ve always fantasized about

But never thought would be real

Starts playing out in my mind

And I wonder if this is a sign

That my once uncertain future

Will be the beginning of a better life

Where my unrealized dreams

Will morph into actual achievements

And I finally become the star

That I am destined to be

Written April 25, 2016

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Poem: There Are No Boundaries

When inspiration strikes

Your voice will guide you

To be one of the dreamers

One of the fighters

One of the leaders

When passion and creativity

Exist within your heart and mind

There are no boundaries

To what you can achieve

There is no limit

To how high you can soar

Written April 21, 2016

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Poem: Alone in an Empty House

She finds herself alone in an empty house

As darkness settles in outside

She is no longer a child

Yet every noise she hears in the silent night

Fills her with anxiety and fear

Unable to fall asleep

She tightly hugs her plush dog and cries

Trying not to let screams escape her

There is no ghost or monster to be found

But there might as well be

Because she doesn’t feel safe inside these walls

And worries that her story

May not have a happy ending

Written April 21, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Underground Lair

The underground lair

Is her sanctuary

For here she is protected

From the deadly stares

The sharp whispers

The nasty remarks

That scar her to the core

And make her wish

She were invisible

And this is where she hides

Awaiting the day

She will at last find peace

Written April 20, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Thinking about Unfulfilled Dreams

Time seems to stand still

As she sits on the swing by the lake

And sways in rhythm with the wind

Thinking about the promises she made to herself

To go out into the scary unknown

And pursue the passion that lies within

She wonders if her unfulfilled dreams

Will ever become more than just desires

And if the limits she set for herself

Will ever be lifted from her mind

Giving her the confidence to go past the horizon

And explore the endless possibilities that await

Written April 20, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Your Heart of Gold

Your heart of gold overflows with love

Surrounds me with inner peace

With the safety of your warm embrace

The promise of a brighter tomorrow

I don’t know what the future holds

But I know that your heart of gold

Will keep me going in this uncertain world

Written April 20, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: I Don't Belong at This Party

I find myself surrounded by a crowd of familiar faces

But I might as well be surrounded by strangers

As these people engage in never-ending conversation

About the things I have no connection to

And so I find myself a stranger in the room

Finding it hard fitting in with these people

Feeling as empty and alone as I’ve ever felt

All the while trying to hide my feelings

I know I don’t belong at this party

And want nothing more than to escape it

But I must stay there until the end

And so I flee to the bathroom

Lock myself in the stall and let the tears fall

Written April 20, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: An Unforgettable Experience

I met a stranger at a wedding
And felt an instant connection
Which grew stronger
As we danced the night away
Our bodies moving without limits
Our unspoken words filled with a fiery passion
As the magical night drew to a close
No promises of a future connection were made
Yet there were no regrets on the horizon
For that night was an unforgettable experience
And one of those memories that I’ll always treasure 

Written April 11, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Free at Last

He made his final speech short yet unique

His delivery deeply moving

His words filled with a fiery passion

His heart weeping with loss

He was free at last

Free to travel back home

Back to a place where her presence was felt

And her memory was still alive

Written April 11, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission.

Poem: Her Perception

She stares at her reflection in the crooked mirror

Her eyes examining every inch of her body

Her perception forever the same

She is a portrait filled with blobs

There is no illustration of beauty

Only traces of never-ending revolt

The familiar expression on her face

Is filled with hatred and bitter tears

Rapid thoughts running through her head

That scar her deep to the core

Telling her she’s a beast

That nobody wants around

Written April 11, 2016

© 2016 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Lost and Found

When it came to real love

I found myself lost in a world of fairy tales

In a world of make believe feelings

That I thought were not pretend

But now I find myself in a world

Where real love is indeed real

And the feelings are not masked

By a desperate plea to be loved

A love that seemed forever lost

Has been found at last

Yes, it is filled with ups and downs

But it is unconditional, genuine

And will stand the test of time

Written April 9, 2016

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Poem: I Am a Warrior

I am a warrior, battling with my lack of confidence,

Battling with the fear that has taken over me

Trying to conquer it and win

So that I can rise above and soar into the sky

The way I am meant to soar

The way I am meant to prosper

But it is no easy feat as I struggle to let go

Of all that I’ve come to accept as being real

That in reality may actually be a lie

Written April 9, 2016

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Poem: Two Lovers

Under the night of a million stars

Beneath the silver moon

That casts its shadow on the water

Our lips melt into each other

The sweetest of kisses never-ending

Our bodies swaying to the rhythm of the waves

As the breeze tickles us with its caress

Our leisurely stroll along the boardwalk

Is now a cherished moment in time

As we become two lovers

United by a soulful passion

Yearning for release

Written March 31, 2016

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