Poem: I Would Die Without You

The skies are gray 

The sun in slumber 

I go to your page 
And I’m left to wonder 

Your last written word
An ache of the heart 
A melancholy verse 
Right from the start 

The last line stood out 
“I would die without you”
An emptiness surrounds 
Could these words be true

You bared your heart 
You shed all the pain
Your body was found 
An angel we gained 
 
Is there a connection  
Did you die for the one 
You could not be with 
But could not be without

Written June 27, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: One Day Without You

I’m lying here in the silence

Staring at the stains on the wall

The right side of the bed is empty

I’m waiting here for your return

It’s only one day here without you 

And yet it feels likes weeks have passed

What will I do till you resurface 

How will I fill my empty day

I wish the sun was peeking through 

But all I see are skies of gray

The rain is drumming against the windows 

Masking the tears on my face

The wafting breeze is fairly warm

And yet I feel a chill pass through me

Because it seems you’re really gone 

And I’m left here without you now

But are you gone

Or are you still here

Won't know for sure 

Till tomorrow appears

Written June 10, 2025

Ⓒ2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Bittersweet Surprise

The last time I saw you
Was when I tied the knot
The last thing I expected
Was to be by your plot

And yet there you were

Your face behind black

Your hollow eyes locked

Into mine for a sec

I stood there frozen

Lyrics engraved on your stone
The notes beneath them
Your voice mine alone

I hummed to myself

These words to be true
It was a wonderful world

On the day I met you

You're forever the music

That sings from your soul
Always here you'll be
Even though you are gone

The mark that you left

On the day of my bliss

Is something I treasure

Is something I miss

A bittersweet surprise

To see you once more

Surrounded by many

Yet not on the dance floor

Your face a reminder

That the end is unknown

So we must live each day

Like there is no tomorrow

Perhaps I will dance

Through life once again

The way that I did

When I danced with my man

Written June 1 - June 2, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only. 

Poem: The Middle of Nowhere

In the middle of nowhere 

Far from the main road

A girl hides 

From a relationship gone cold

A prisoner of his words

Her heart an empty shell 

She makes up lies 

To cover up the pain 

She doesn’t want to be 

In the middle of nowhere 

She wants to be in a place

Where her heart is whole 

She can’t even trust herself

To make the right choices

At this moment in time 

So who can she trust?

To get her back to the main road

To a life she used to have 

Before it was ruined 

By the one she thought was the one 

Written February 23, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only. 

Poem: My Life

I don't have what it takes to make it

No matter how much I try to fake it 

There’s this feeling and I can’t shake it 

And this fear I just can’t break it 

It’s crazy 

It’s hazy 

It’s not that I’m lazy 

I’m just like a daisy 

Can’t make up my mind 

My life’s undefined 

I’m falling behind 

Keep hitting rewind

Instead of fast forward 

And me moving onward 

It seems I’ve gone toward 

A life of a coward 

Instead of progressing 

I’m constantly stressing 

And hope for a blessing 

Don’t want to be guessing 

I’m falling, I’m sorry 

I’m making you worry 

One moment of glory 

I’ll rewrite my story 

It may take a while 

To dig through the pile 

But life is a trial 

And filled with denial

You take it

You break it

And you fake it 

Till you make it 

Written February 4, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

 

Poem: Words Unseen

I fill an empty page 

With words from the heart

Only to have them be invisible 

To those that scroll through their feed

My words unseen

They may as well not exist 

Written May 28, 2024

© 2024 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Tired

I am tired of this place
And my mere existence
I'm tired of pretending
Like things will be different
I don't have it in me
To change what is happening
There is no more spark
Or the drive to do anything
So here I find myself
Inside these four walls again
Letting the days go by
Not really living life
What is the point then
When all the hope is gone
Maybe the time has come
For me to say so long
To the one that doesn't try
To spread her wings and fly

Written December 19, 2022

© 2022 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.