Poem: The Middle of Nowhere

In the middle of nowhere 

Far from the main road

A girl hides 

From a relationship gone cold

A prisoner of his words

Her heart an empty shell 

She makes up lies 

To cover up the pain 

She doesn’t want to be 

In the middle of nowhere 

She wants to be in a place

Where her heart is whole 

She can’t even trust herself

To make the right choices

At this moment in time 

So who can she trust?

To get her back to the main road

To a life she used to have 

Before it was ruined 

By the one she thought was the one 

Written February 23, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only. 

Poem: My Life

I don't have what it takes to make it

No matter how much I try to fake it 

There’s this feeling and I can’t shake it 

And this fear I just can’t break it 

It’s crazy 

It’s hazy 

It’s not that I’m lazy 

I’m just like a daisy 

Can’t make up my mind 

My life’s undefined 

I’m falling behind 

Keep hitting rewind

Instead of fast forward 

And me moving onward 

It seems I’ve gone toward 

A life of a coward 

Instead of progressing 

I’m constantly stressing 

And hope for a blessing 

Don’t want to be guessing 

I’m falling, I’m sorry 

I’m making you worry 

One moment of glory 

I’ll rewrite my story 

It may take a while 

To dig through the pile 

But life is a trial 

And filled with denial

You take it

You break it

And you fake it 

Till you make it 

Written February 4, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

 

Poem: Words Unseen

I fill an empty page 

With words from the heart

Only to have them be invisible 

To those that scroll through their feed

My words unseen

They may as well not exist 

Written May 28, 2024

© 2024 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Tired

I am tired of this place
And my mere existence
I'm tired of pretending
Like things will be different
I don't have it in me
To change what is happening
There is no more spark
Or the drive to do anything
So here I find myself
Inside these four walls again
Letting the days go by
Not really living life
What is the point then
When all the hope is gone
Maybe the time has come
For me to say so long
To the one that doesn't try
To spread her wings and fly

Written December 19, 2022

© 2022 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: My Eyes Deceive Me

I look toward the bar
And see you standing there
With short gray hair and glasses
Shocked at the sight of you 

I quickly look away
Thinking I've imagined you
But when I turn back around
You are still there
Not moving an inch 

How can this be
You are supposed to be down below
With your beloved parents
And yet here you are
Gracing me with your presence

I have the sudden urge to approach you
To say hello
To give you a hug I've been yearning for
But then you turn your face toward me
And that's when I realize that it isn't you
But a stranger that resembled you in the distance

Oh how my eyes deceive me
Into thinking you are still here
When you are nowhere to be found

Perhaps this is a sign
But I wonder what it means
To think you are standing there
When it's not really you

Written November 15, 2022

© 2022 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poems: Memories Reborn

Memories that fade with time
Can be reborn 
Just like the seasons
Each season sparking visuals
Of what once was

Bit by bit the details spring forth

Revealing the passing of time

Forming a complete painting

Of all that unfolded long ago

Drops of rain against the windowpane

Snowflakes falling from the sky

The rustling of the leaves

Their crunch under your feet

The booming thunder overhead

All these things and more

Can bring back memories

That seemed to have faded 

All you need to do 

Is be one with nature

And you will find the past

Coming alive before your very eyes

Written November 7, 2022

© 2022 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Picture in the Frame

I see your picture in the frame

And as I near you

There you are 

Staring at me 

Gazing right through me 

Right into my soul

You have left us behind

And yet you are still here

Watching my every move

Listening to every thought

That escapes me 

Or remains hidden within

Perhaps that is just 

A figment of my imagination

But there is an eerie feeling 

In the room as I near you

To say hello

To utter a few words

And I feel as if you are judging me

As if you are disappointed with who I am

Or the way I live my life

Or that I am not moving forward

And I find myself weeping

My face streaked with tears

Wondering about your last thoughts of me

Before you went away

Wondering about your last words to me

In that hospital room

Words that you screamed out

But were muted

By a tube in your throat

As you looked at me with fear in your eyes

Written October 17, 2022

© 2022 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.