Poem: Out of the Blue

Out of the blue
You called me one day
Said if you don't get what you want
You will be on your way

Over a decade
Spent together with love
An ultimatum I didn't see coming
Harsh words for the dove

Made me believe
That you're mine for life
Waited so long to tell me
It's the end for your wife

Yet still you are here
Though things aren't the same
Days spent living with a stranger
My heart filled with shame

When did your love for me
Suddenly start being fake
And how long must I wait for
The day you make your mistake

Edited March 26, 2026

Original version:

You called me up one day and said
If you don’t get what you want
You’ll be on your way
It’s been a decade and only now
An ultimatum out of the blue
Why did you wait so long to act
Made me believe you’ll never leave
And then tell me this
Yet still you are here
How long will it be till you leave for good
So much for I love you very much
Did you ever really love me at all

Written September 21, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: How Long Will This Last?

You’re living your life

Without me in it

And yet we’re tied

By that piece of paper

Don’t know if you’re alone

Or if someone else is there

And it kills me, not knowing

My future, my fate

How long will this last?

This cruel separation

There’s only so long

I can go on this way

You need to make a choice

Am I in or am I out?

And if I am out

Then sign on the line

But if per chance

You do want me in it

Then please resume contact

And return back to me

I want you here with me

Now and forever

Just as I did back then

When we bonded for life

Written October 5, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: All I Have

All I have are memories 

Constant what ifs and could’ve beens

If only you had chosen me

Instead of the insanity 

You wouldn't be here haunting me

Leaving me scarred for eternity 

Written February 14, 2026

© 2026 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: You Walked Away

I never wanted to walk away 

But you did it

Because it was the easiest thing 

For you to do 

Instead of trying to make things better 

You packed your stuff and left 

Without an explanation 

Without advanced warning 

I don’t know what your life is like

Without me in it 

But my gut tells me 

It’s not better than it was

When you were with me

Mine certainly isn’t 

Every day I struggle with the fact

That you’re no longer here

Even though you’re always on my mind 

No matter what I do 

You’re still mine on paper

But in reality you're just someone 

That exists only in my mind

For our paths rarely cross 

And when they do

It’s a bittersweet moment 

And when you leave 

It’s like I’ve lost you all over again

How long can you go on

Living this way 

Acting as if I don’t exist 

As if I’m no longer yours 

And if I’m no longer yours in your mind 

Then why are you still holding on to me 

Why can’t you bring yourself 

To finally let me go 

Written December 2, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only. 

Poem: You Left

You left me alone 

To fend for myself 

You left me alone 

I’m left without help 

You left me in debt

A debt I must pay

But how will I pay it

So it goes away  

Do you even care 

What happens to me 

Or is it more important 

You set yourself free

No warning about 

The ending to come 

I’m left in the dark 

Here hoping for some

For some sort of sign 

About your plans

About the future 

I held in my hands 

Thought you were forever 

But you chose to end 

The great thing you started

When you held my hand

Now I’m left to wonder 

About what went wrong

That made you want space 

For who knows how long 

There isn’t a phone call 

No email or text

No how are you doing 

What’s happening next 

We’re still tied together 

And yet you are gone 

You’re living your life

While I can’t go on 

How long will it be 

Till I know how it ends 

So I can start living

Not playing pretend

Written October 30, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: I Still Think About You

No matter what I do 
I still think about you 
You are always on my mind  
Morning, day, and night 
And one thing is clear 
It’s hard without you here

Written September 8, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: I Wish You Were Here

You’re the last thing on my mind
As I drift to the land of dreams
And the first thing every morning
When I open my eyes it seems

Like you have woken up early
But the silence it fills the room
And the side of your bed is empty
Though I still make the bed for two

How I yearn to hold your hand
How I yearn to cuddle with you
As we fall asleep together
That’s the thing I look forward to

But you are no longer here
Only memories that float in my head
For now I’ll take that over nothing
Though I wish you were here in our bed

Written September 25, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.