Poem: Torn and Broken

You tell me you’re leaving

But you are still here

Don’t know what you’re doing 

Can you make it clear

You’re playing with my heart

And you’re scarring me deep

I’m torn and I’m broken

It’s hard not to weep

Yet you seem unbothered 

Keep living your life

As if nothing’s wrong

As if I’m not your wife 

Written August 11, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: What Do I Do?

Do I give you what you want 

So you won’t leave me 

Do I lie to you in hopes

That you’ll believe me

Or do I tell you this is it

Take it or leave it

Will you stay or will you go 

Hard to believe it 

This is something that you want 

And it’s not a give and take 

I have no say in what you do

I can’t believe you want a break 

You say it’s only temporary 

But I don’t think this is the case

Once you are gone for just a while 

You won’t return to our place 

Written July 11, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only. 

Poem: Fading Away

I should’ve done all to make you stay

I shouldn’t have let you get away 

Instead I just froze and stayed that way

And what we had had died that day

There’s nothing left for me to say
I cannot face another day
Without you here I cannot stay 
My mere existence fading away

If I cannot function when I press play
Then what am I doing here anyway 
An inner voice whispers to me today 
It should’ve been me that died that day

Written July 22, 2025

 

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: I Would Die for You

The skies are gray 

The sun in slumber 

I go to your page 
And I’m left to wonder 

Your last written word
An ache of the heart 
A melancholy verse 
Right from the start 

The last line stood out 
“I would die for you”
An emptiness surrounds 
Could these words be true

You bared your heart 
You shed all the pain
Your body was found 
An angel we gained 
 
Is there a connection  
Did you die for the one 
You could not be with 
But could not be without

Written June 27, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: One Day Without You

I’m lying here in the silence

Staring at the stains on the wall

The right side of the bed is empty

I’m waiting here for your return

It’s only one day here without you 

And yet it feels likes weeks have passed

What will I do till you resurface 

How will I fill my empty day

I wish the sun was peeking through 

But all I see are skies of gray

The rain is drumming against the windows 

Masking the tears on my face

The wafting breeze is fairly warm

And yet I feel a chill pass through me

Because it seems you’re really gone 

And I’m left here without you now

But are you gone

Or are you still here

Won't know for sure 

Till tomorrow appears

Written June 10, 2025

Ⓒ2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.

Poem: Bittersweet Surprise

The last time I saw you
Was when I tied the knot
The last thing I expected
Was to be by your plot

And yet there you were

Your face behind black

Your hollow eyes locked

Into mine for a sec

I stood there frozen

Lyrics engraved on your stone
The notes beneath them
Your voice mine alone

I hummed to myself

These words to be true
It was a wonderful world

On the day I met you

You're forever the music

That sings from your soul
Always here you'll be
Even though you are gone

The mark that you left

On the day of my bliss

Is something I treasure

Is something I miss

A bittersweet surprise

To see you once more

Surrounded by many

Yet not on the dance floor

Your face a reminder

That the end is unknown

So we must live each day

Like there is no tomorrow

Perhaps I will dance

Through life once again

The way that I did

When I danced with my man

Written June 1 - June 2, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only. 

Poem: The Middle of Nowhere

In the middle of nowhere 

Far from the main road

A girl hides 

From a relationship gone cold

A prisoner of his words

Her heart an empty shell 

She makes up lies 

To cover up the pain 

She doesn’t want to be 

In the middle of nowhere 

She wants to be in a place

Where her heart is whole 

She can’t even trust herself

To make the right choices

At this moment in time 

So who can she trust?

To get her back to the main road

To a life she used to have 

Before it was ruined 

By the one she thought was the one 

Written February 23, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only. 

Poem: My Life

I don't have what it takes to make it

No matter how much I try to fake it 

There’s this feeling and I can’t shake it 

And this fear I just can’t break it 

It’s crazy 

It’s hazy 

It’s not that I’m lazy 

I’m just like a daisy 

Can’t make up my mind 

My life’s undefined 

I’m falling behind 

Keep hitting rewind

Instead of fast forward 

And me moving onward 

It seems I’ve gone toward 

A life of a coward 

Instead of progressing 

I’m constantly stressing 

And hope for a blessing 

Don’t want to be guessing 

I’m falling, I’m sorry 

I’m making you worry 

One moment of glory 

I’ll rewrite my story 

It may take a while 

To dig through the pile 

But life is a trial 

And filled with denial

You take it

You break it

And you fake it 

Till you make it 

Written February 4, 2025

© 2025 by Lena Kovadlo. Use with permission only.